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Voices In My Head

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So many voices swirling around

Starting at the top

working their way down

Telling me what to do

when and how

While I’m trying to get

them all to shut up now

So I can hear the voice

from within

Demanding to be heard

over the din

Commanding its presence over

all the logic and emotions

Chaotically fighting this

inner felt notion

of clarity and knowing

Utilizing the power

that drives the ocean

Harnessing my energy

igniting synchronicity

Aligning one’s self

to the Source

Sending away the

logical voices

No longer doubting

my intuitive choices

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This and That

Just a quick post, update I suppose….

When I started posting poetry, most of the poems were from a collection of jottings and journaling. Memories of years gone by. I did begin writing some new material, yet I felt there was more I wanted to explore.

The last few months, mingled in with holidays, SNOW, a bunch of other funky stuff, MORE SNOW, you get my drift ( lol couldn’t help it ūüėČ ) I’ve been writing, noticing, listening, pondering.

Playing with perspectives is a big part of it. Choices based on¬† Or not depending on the choiceof Societies RULES. Following the pack, being like EVERYONE ELSE or not. It’s simple and extremely difficult at the same time.

My Cousin said something to me that was one of those perspective changing moments. I can’t even remember exactly how he said it. Basically, past hurts prevent future experiences.

We write our own story every day.  It can be what ever we choose.

How often do we remember that, throughout  our hectic day?

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Currently I’m working on posting ¬†some random writing, poems, affirmations ¬†and recipes. Mostly I’m working on my story ¬†and enjoying the arrival of spring.

Also,  cooking is a hobby of mine, an edible science project! I would love your feedback. (I just need to start taking more pictures) Always seems better as a collaborative effort.

 

 

 

River’s Flow

RIVERS FLOW

Life sure can be funny

of letting you know which way

things will go

As you watch your plans

go completely astray

In the currents flow

of tomorrow and yesterday

~ ~ ~

In the past I used to

get so upset

worked so hard for what

I wanted to get

Not realizing all

the blood and sweat

Were for something else

I’d not yet

Foreseen,

ya know what I mean?

~ ~ ~

Now as I  grow older

I finally learned to shoulder

the wishes and dreams

floating away downstream

realizing

nothing is what it seems

~ ~ ~

Living in the present moment

absorbing the bits and smidgens

of smiles, blessings and bestowments

of love and riches

These times used to pass me by

as life went on around me

While¬†I’d plan where the future lied

The world cried out

Hey, JOIN ME

 ~ ~ ~

The time to second guess U-turns

has finally passed on forever

I’ll not go back to the place

when i’m crying over whether

I’ve made the right choice

If, maybe I shouldn’t have used my voice

Flourishing and nourishing

as the river flows

leading me to the unknown

adventures of the universe

~ ~ ~

Wait! I can’t forget

to sing a verse before I go

and enjoy the upcoming show

About a King, and ends with “know”

The rest ringing out

all through the riverboat

And that’s what we need

to say to ourselves

When chaos and doubt announce

their arrival

Unwelcome guests, not on our

manifest

No time for us to wait

They’re about to close the gate!

~ ~ ~

Alas, my journey has begun

with the river as my captain

and the moon as my guide

each step bringing me closer

to the destination

Just remember to

Enjoy the Ride!

NM

Part Two | Goals

If you missed Part One

Goals

I like goals, and  wishes too.

Prayers, faith, hope mean a lot to me as well

Where a Dreamer sees one moment, in the future, I see

steps along a path, many steps!

And I am trying to discern which way to go.

Then out comes that fun word

FOCUS

Ha! I think I figured it out..sorta ūüėČ

The worry, indecision and stress Ignites when that focus

slips away and yet the focus is not in the moment!

It’s not in the¬†NOW at all. It is way, way ahead in the future, and the plan, or path is based on your Goals + Past experience.

We receive our motivation from our past failures.

We set forth on a¬†new path into the future of change and….

WAIT

Where did NOW go? What happened to the FLOW?

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Where is the part where the decisions fly quickly and positive energy sparks, the timing feels right and obstacles melt away?

It resides IN THAT CLEAR FOCUS

(Rewind to a month ago)

In 12 days time, I managed to dismantle so much, just by losing sight of my goals. Yup, that fast.

I’d quit caffeine, bad sugar and sweets. I’d cut back on smoking and my medications that I felt had begun to do more harm than good. I was exercising, eating well, sleeping well. I was able to find balance! Mixing in nature, lots of sunshine and music, life¬†finally seemed to have a rhythm to it all. Things were finally moving forward,¬†FLOWING AGAIN.

The true essence of now in my mind had finally set in

Until one fateful night, where I made a careless choice.

Spiraling down, so fast I couldn’t hardly keep up!

Holy cow man.. there went three doctors appointments, a job interview and all our weekly activities. I had a flat tire, my patience ran thin with the kids, my business was suffering neglect, the pets were not getting the attention they deserved. The weather changed and all the warm clothes were piled up in the laundry room. The yard became a jungle, the house was a mess. I accidentally ( and on a few occasions on purpose) broke all kinds of stuff because I was hasty or mad or neglectful or whimsical…..

Boils down to this~ life can be nothing but a big house of cards, tumbling away into oblivion at this point.

CRAZINESS

That one simple moment, the loss of a goal, can¬†trickle so far and wide.¬†That is the other AH HA moment….

When to quit, when to intelligibly move in another direction or when to drive straight ahead.

Timing disappears, stress reigns and conflicts are everywhere =  Negativity

Being able to see your path along the way to a destination. The clarity of it all, setting forth toward your¬†goal¬†– that’s when it flips – the past falls away

~The future holds no worries~

And the self feels the present and truly knows  the way to flow.

It is only then I can breathe easy, even if things on the outside look bleak. That is the moment I precisely know things will fall into place.

What I struggle to do is explain this to other people in my life. I’m not mean or uncaring or insensitive or even without emotion, it’s just that these feelings aren’t what I mean when¬†my gut feels the FLOW

EGO=EMOTIONS=LOSS OF YOUR GOAL=NEGATION OF FLOW

You do not go on a road trip with out some sort of destination in mind. Or into the ocean, or the sky…why would our lives be any different?

Why would someone hinder my positive forward motion,  passing it off as maybe love (possessions) seemingly apparent to fill a void (not foster growth)? When this type of behavior is expected of me (ridiculous displays of devotion)

I shut down

To many people, due to my wide array of interests and ideas, I usually seem unfocused and all over the place. It is because those who judge and criticize can not wrap their head around the goals and dreams I am working hard to achieve.

My biggest challenge, I have now discovered, is not in reaching those goals. It is learning to stay focused and unwavering while fending off the put-downs. It is learning to¬†fend off with out pissing off. I get so frustrated when I’m misunderstood. I can only explain so much, I can only¬†adapt so much, before I utterly

FREAK OUT

I feel like a feral cat someone is trying to put in a cage, being lured by warmth, comfort and that fancy stuff out of a can on a pedastle plate ¬†( don’t you just love manipulation at the expense of others selfish wants?)

I cannot help

THE WAY I MUST FLOW

So please, If you have an agenda, undoubtedly I will react

And it wont be pretty

NM