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Getting Lost and Directions

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Getting Lost and Directions

When ¬†I started this blog, I had all sorts of ideas. Poetry was not one of them ūüôā

Yet, here I am. What happened at first was exciting and overwhelming. I did not anticipate my jumbled, often contradictory feelings, thrown into fragments, could even be considered poetry or prose. I most definitely did not expect to reach people, touch people,  help people. I simply was not prepared. I felt too vulnerable, and insecure.

I began to hold back my feelings. I was insecure about my negative/dark thoughts and writing.  I felt responsible, self-conscious and placed unnecessary expectations on myself.

I read information about marketing, tried to master the ever-changing SEO dance, joined the ‘look-at-me’ brigade…it sucked. It ruined the whole process, my entire mission.

I decided to take a step back. I took a break and focused on starting a dream of mine, a home  delivery cooking business. I also began to focus more on QEDomains, another business I would like to see get off the ground.

Then Life decided to throw a fit, akin to a 2 year old’s temper-tantrum. Health issues, family drama and financial issues ensued. I was in the middle of home-schooling, trying to find work and ran out of money for anything on the extra list.

Then I was missed?! I was blown away by the feedback. It just took awhile to sink in. I was not feeling very worthy, was experiencing too much loss and grief to feel like I could help or contribute to anyone. Most of the feedback I’ve experienced has been on Twitter. It is a wild place. One, where surprisingly, which I have found compassion, empathy and connection. Touching people with my words has been humbling.

Thankfully, as all things seem to do, the storm calmed. Positive forward motion was now possible. My Muse began to sing again.

Knowing I can help is what has encouraged me to continue to post my poems and basically my journal. Hearing from you is what will enable my site to flourish. Connecting with other like-minded souls is the best part

Moving forward, what I hope to¬†accomplish is putting my thoughts, poems, photos, recipes, drawings, paintings and other creations out there with no regard to appeal or popularity. If the world likes it, fantastic!¬†If not, well that’s fantastic too. Self-reliance is my goal. Basing our worth on others needs, wants, judgments or expectations/rules is a recipe for disaster. No one ever benefits.

And on this journey, when I falter, or need a pep talk, or have to vent and rant, my pen will once again hit the paper. I’ll write freely like I used to. I’ll let my jumbled emotions flow. I’ll let go of worrying about what people think. I’m letting go of ridicule, systems, formulas and agendas. ¬†I look forward to what has yet to unfold.

If you made it this far, wow, YOU ROCK! I thank you for you time and attention. It means a lot to me

Dodging Curve-balls

What an amazing day
The kind that flows
Where balance is abundant
Life shimmering with gold

For moment I thought
I might say that today
Was indeed what you
Would call a perfect day

I stopped short
Of saying it out loud
Didn’t want to rock the boat
Or act too proud

Even went back
Rehashed my steps
Trying to commit to memory
How to stack this deck

The only difference
Was my perspective …
As the phone rang
Shattering the collective

Feelings of bliss and relaxation
Out the door
The crisis so far away
I had no idea
what was in store

Yet, as time passed
Solutions were found
Not a tear was shed or
angry words thrown around

Then in a moment of silence
I realized I must
Always cling
To that place inside my soul
Helping me accept the
Twists and turns life brings

This and That

Just a quick post, update I suppose….

When I started posting poetry, most of the poems were from a collection of jottings and journaling. Memories of years gone by. I did begin writing some new material, yet I felt there was more I wanted to explore.

The last few months, mingled in with holidays, SNOW, a bunch of other funky stuff, MORE SNOW, you get my drift ( lol couldn’t help it ūüėČ ) I’ve been writing, noticing, listening, pondering.

Playing with perspectives is a big part of it. Choices based on¬† Or not depending on the choiceof Societies RULES. Following the pack, being like EVERYONE ELSE or not. It’s simple and extremely difficult at the same time.

My Cousin said something to me that was one of those perspective changing moments. I can’t even remember exactly how he said it. Basically, past hurts prevent future experiences.

We write our own story every day.  It can be what ever we choose.

How often do we remember that, throughout  our hectic day?

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Currently I’m working on posting ¬†some random writing, poems, affirmations ¬†and recipes. Mostly I’m working on my story ¬†and enjoying the arrival of spring.

Also,  cooking is a hobby of mine, an edible science project! I would love your feedback. (I just need to start taking more pictures) Always seems better as a collaborative effort.

 

 

 

Chaos In The Air

Sat here crying over
Nights lost long ago
Wondering if it could
Ever “BE” again

And lo and behold
Unsung prayers answered
Right before my eyes
Instantly ripping away the disguise

Showing me the game
Still is quite the same
As the same players keep
Playing their childish games

As I sit quietly
Out of the chaos
Wondering how on earth
I thought I lost…

Yet what I’ve gained
Is immeasurable
Truly guided by light
Thankful to have the foresight

To go on one’s own
Protecting my family
With courage and integrity
Yet with heartfelt compassion
for those still suffering

Anticipation

Thoughts of us

swirl around my head

Visions of you and me

Together on our new journey

We are obstacle free!

Beginning our life

as it should be

Cherishing every moment

as a Gift from Above

Never questioning or looking back

wondering is this really

LOVE

Simple and true

Honest through and through

Doubt is officially erased

As we enter our next phase

Moving forward with zeal

without any doubt of what’s real

Riding the momentum wave

toward our new life unfolding

Never questioning the road that has been paved

and illuminated brightly before us

Right now, it’s time to give thanks

and a big reward for

US

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Hey Mister Universe

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Hey Mister Universe

can you hear me?

When you look down

what do you see?

We call to you

by many different names

Even though

our thoughts and prayers

are mainly the same

Divided we can be

did you know the Baptists alone

have over 200 denominations to honor thee?

Do you wonder why we fight

and wallow in our plight?

Do you feel sad when

you witness all the drama

all of those that are mad?

You bestowed upon us

FREE WILL

and the power of choice

Yet those who choose the dark side

revel in taking our voice!

Others choose strength and virtue

integrity and faith

Knowing our FREEDOM to CHOOSE

is not in any man’s power¬†to determine our

FATE

I ask you to hear me today

as I pray for those

who’ve¬†gone astray

I pray for souls

mired in hate and pain

PLEASE let them know

they have NOTHING to gain

You are honored and revered

in so many ways

Our love for you must outweigh

those who use you

for their agenda & personal gain

I promise you on this day

to NEVER allow

my faith to be swayed

To always remember I am loved and NEVER alone

To live up to the mission

you embedded in my unique code

To pass along your message

through love and empathy

Until I begin my passage home

Thank you Mister Universe

for this chance

to help others, to give back

TO TAKE A STANCE

Thank you as well

for the ability to accomplish my goals

no matter how hard it may seem

You know me so very well

You know I’ll achieve my

DREAMS!

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Please take a moment to watch the video below

and let it’s message sink into your soul

You are BEAUTIFUL

You are LOVED

You are here  for a REASON

 

from Mateusz M youtube channel

Timeless

How can it be

after all this time

a connection so strong

It knows  of no lines

drawn in the sand

or boundaries laid by our own hand

in a universe that moves so fast

yet stands still, within our grasp

giving us one more

CHANCE

wow, how blessed are we

to have re-connected in the stormy seas

of insanity and drama

brought upon our karma

Yet

the true test is not

what happens to us

but what we do

in spite of the challenges

brought upon us

and our friend “KARMA”

is waiting to see

if we rise to the top

of the rough and tumbling  sea

because it is offering us

a blessing in disguise

It’s up to us

to read between the lines

of life’s trials and tribulations

and a second chance

to seize the universe’s design

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Clarity! Calm Seas Ahead!

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I feel so much better now

Storm has finally passed

Clarity, in spite of the mess

My path

Oh thank you for the blessings

Now it’s time to keep forward motion

I see calm seas ahead of me

And the waves

will come and go

At least i know

my ship can weather the storms

Nature’s fury is unpredictable

My choices and reactions

need no longer be

^^ LOOK AROUND ^^

I’ve done it! I’ve made it!

The sun warms my face

WE ARE SAFE

The next time around

I KNOW

I’ll TRUST my faith

I’ll RELY on my resolve

I’ll BE impenetrable

BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO BE

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Loving life one day at a time

Today is English day at school. Not the fun part at first, either. I was never a fan of rules myself, and frankly,¬†although important,¬†grammar isn’t fun….normally

I found a great site,  TurtleDiary.com and it had so many things to choose from. The different nouns can be confusing. Indeed engaging games were found and learning commenced. We ended with adjectives, a wonderful lunch and reading time on the porch.

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We’re reading Tales from the Odyssey, by Mary Pope Osborne. She really makes this classic come alive for the kids. It’s fun to read aloud as well. The best part? Here is the view my son had while listening to me read

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As a mother and teacher, I receive so much joy from watching the wistful look on his face, as he imagines, dreams, empathizes and grows inside, learning the morals of the tales. With the sounds of the creek flowing over the rocks, the birds chirping and tufts of cotton (fall pollen is FUN) looking so pretty as the wind sweeps it by….. Nature is always making a movie!

¬†I didn’t want to interrupt his zen moment¬†so I decided to drop the trip back to the earlier lessons of the day. We could pick out ‘non-countable nouns’ and ‘adjectives’ later. All his friends just got off the bus, it’s time to go play ūüėÄ

One of my last flowers on the porch
One of my last flowers on the porch