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As If…

©Misty Mountain Reverie 2015
©Misty Mountain Reverie 2015

 

Who on earth

are you

to tell me

what I need

to do?

As if I asked

for your advice

Or indicated

I was struggling

with a vice

 

I’m quite happy

don’t you see?

Oh no, wait ha-ha

With you it’s always

“All about ME”

Because I’m not

fulfilling an

expectation of your’s?

Take your pathetic

projections and shove

it up your drawers

Your arrogance and

condescending tone

Are laughable at best

At the very least

just go home

Lord, is this a test?

To see if I can find

compassion and forgiveness

Trying to convince you

I will never feel

your indifference

Just let me get back

to the beautiful space

I create

Before your

Miserable spirit thought

It had a hand

In my

Fate

Promises Shromises

You Promised

to keep me safe

to care for me

to never leave

You said you loved me

more than anyone

We built our lives, our dreams

together

and it’s so wrong

your aren’t here

I don’t know what to do now

I hate fear

I mourn for normalcy

I cry for my family

I yearn to feel you close

I feel lost, abandoned

I pray for the Lord

to heal our broken souls

To learn to trust again

To learn to feel safe again

It wasn’t supposed to

be this way

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Bewildered and Befuddled

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I’m so confused, lost my heart

I know it here somewhere, I felt it tear apart

in a million directions, the pain flowed

Oh no! Oh no! Where did it go?

It’s got to be here somewhere

you have to have a heart

If I could find the pieces

i could mend them i’m sure

I’ll use my best skills

Then again, I know this is not true

I’ll smack it together, hit it with my shoe

Because for some reason when the day is near the end

And I’m trying to assess

who needs what & when

What hat did I drop?

Is it ever going to

JUST STOP

And I’ve still  barely managed

to get anything done

It stops

It screeches to a halt

*!*!*!* I think I get it now *!*!*!*

I’ve forgotten to care the most

for the one person

who gets

a toast

those pieces will find

a way back inside

when you hear love agree

NM 09-29-14