Dreaming with a Heavy Heart

All I’ve ever wanted
Is a Normal Life
Not burdened with strife
To be a Mother and Wife

Relishing the boring and mundane
Counting these as blessings
Where others tend to
Go insane

I longingly wish
When I see families in bliss
That would be me
Someday

Envying the couple
Who’ve lived in that house
For 40 years and
Held together a 60 year marriage
Despite the pain and tears

Oh traditions, what a joy
To have such a comfort
In a familiar ploy
To keep the family going
Spending time together
Without knowing
How lucky they are

To have a mom to call on
When things get rough
To have a dad I could lean on
When Im not so tough

To have my children know
Safety not fear
Love and trust
Rather than the
Bulls%#t veneer

Of falsehood and hurt
And selfish ways
That unfortunately seem
To dominate our days

And when I hear women
Who have this life, complain
It makes me furious
It makes me feel insane

Like Im the one who’s crazy
For feeling their life is maybe
The most cherished place
In the world

This is my wish
As I wake from dreaming
With a heavy heart

Middle of the Night

Middle of the night
Up again, can’t sleep
Thinking about you
Or are you
thinking about me

Still on the radar I see
No matter what I do
I feel you, hear you
As if you’re right here
Next to me

Will it ever get easy
To remember you
To laugh at
our good times

Can a day go by
When I don’t wish you
Were in my world
one more day
And I had a chance to
Tell you all about what
Id been meaning to say

And I’d not hesitated
Thinking it could wait
One more day
~~~~~~~~~~
Although that day
Will never come
I cherish the moments
Of remembered love
And thank God
You woke me up
In the
Middle of the Night

The Big “Let Down”

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Is your imagination strong?

Why do you ask, you might say

Do you feel wronged

when things don’t go your way?

You look around

at the life you have

count blessings you found

so you aren’t mad

at the dissipation of

the one you dream of

going bad

There’s no sense in it

The sadness accomplishes nothing

You’ll drive yourself mad if you sit

and rehash the disappointing

turn of events as they unfold

Oh how I wish life were not so bold

I’m tired of having

no one to love and hold

I need someone

to give it all to

Who will accept me

cherish me and be true?

Not much to ask really

But it is though

A good person I am

A warm and loving soul

Forever looking and seemingly unable

to find the one to make me whole

Sparkle in your eyes

My Bapa and my baby girl, always sending smiles and love
My Bapa and my baby girl, always sending smiles and love

What if every time you  saw someone

who seemed sad or down

You smiled, said hello or

simply offered them a way around

the pain, or hurt or suffering

they’re struggling to cope with

It wont take much of your time

or effort at all

Just a simple gesture trickles

so very wide and far

Maybe they are lost and feeling alone

and you  come along

offering to loan

them your heart, your ear

and help calm their fear

You’ll then have accomplished more

in a few little moments

than the entire day it took

to get you to arrive at that place

where a stranger saw the look

and the sparkle in your eyes

that helped them feel alright

~~~~~~~~~

Please, today reach out! You might be in traffic, pumping gas, in a check out line or restaurant. One small smile can mean so much to someone else.

If it’s someone serving you, having a difficult time, break the ice instead of their day. Let them know you appreciate they are working hard and understand how tough it can be. Watch them melt in front of you! Your efforts will return tenfold.

Peace and Blessings 

Segue….Please read!

This is a bit of an unusual post for me, but one I find compelled to write. I have Asthma. Each and every year, during the holidays, I am constantly dodging clean air. Here’s why ~ Fragrance & crowds

 

During the holidays, we tend to find ourselves in crowds more and more for a variety of reasons. School events, Christmas parties, shopping, holiday concerts and shows and the grocery store is PACKED all the time. We also tend to use more fragrances when we are dressing up. Think about it, who douses themselves with cologne when hanging around the house on a Sunday?

 

So, as a favor to all the asthmatics out there, I am requesting you are mindful when dressing up and going out. DO NOT load up your wrists, as it gets all over the handles of doors, carts and armrests. I’ve left many of school concerts, basketball games of my sons and half-full carts of groceries simply because I could not breathe. Elevators create anxiety, because I never know if I will be stuck with a fragrance that will choke me.

 

I am not suggesting you stop all together. I worked in the Beauty Industry for 25+ years until I became allergic to almost everything.  I understand the need and desire to smell good! Remember, your body wash, your styling products, your cologne or perfume all  are competing with each other! Pick one thing to make your self smell good. Place it on your skin, on an area that will not rub off. Our natural body oils absorb the chemicals better than our clothing. Another thing to keep in mind, we can smell it more than you can. Over-use accomplishes nothing but letting someone know you’re coming from a mile away.

 

Something else to consider, is an asthmatics develop a keen sense of smell. Nature’s natural warning system. A crowded room is equal to 10 genres of music all playing at once! It’s overwhelming to your brain. I call it Olfactory Overload! Also, some asthma attacks can truly set you back days, even weeks. Losing oxygen begins to affect the body quickly. You feel weak and your muscles are sore. You will have relapses to things you can normally deal with. Kinda like after-shocks. It is extremely frustrating, especially during a time of year where you want to partake in the events and festivities, yet decline.

 

If you would, next time you are getting dressed, be mindful. Asthma is a serious condition. It is getting harder and harder to breathe as our addiction to chemical fragrance is everywhere. Asthmatics can  learn to avoid certain stores and businesses, but it’s almost impossible to judge when you have to skip holiday concerts, sporting events and parties. Luck of the draw, really.

 

Thank you, if you read to the end. Thank you if you will consider changing the way you wear fragrance and passing this along to others. It will mean a lot to any asthma sufferer out there!

Chaos, it seems ( or is it just a dream?)

IMAG0045Spiraling Spiraling down with me

will you go if you hang with me

Into the rabbit hole

and out to the sea

Out of there

here we come

finding our journey

has just begun

The shape and form

is second to none

Did I forget

to mention the ride?

I dare not forewarn you

It is you I see

Looking in the spiral

of eternity

Many many

versions of me

hold on always

enjoying the ride

sideways

 

Universe’s Hard Drive

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Sweet, soothing smile

with fire in his eyes

One simple kiss

I melt, in disguise

Rivers of emotion

envelop my senses

Taking me on a journey

I never expected

To feel so young and free

yet so calm, so still

~~~~~

My heart beats

in the rhythm of peace

combined with a dash of soul

Drinking in the currents

conducting, creating

something whole

To last beyond milennia

Always finding our open doors

flowing to each other

Knows no time, no score

Suspended in a moment

of wind, rain and sunshine

Oh how they all can combine

Into something

not your’s

not mine

not even Time’s,

etched on the

Universe’s hard drive